Crying because nothing makes any sense at most points.
I want it all to make sense.
I can't sit here and say I'm intelligent because I can't make sense of it all.
Of people's actions, thoughts.
Not even my own thoughts. I want these thoughts to go away.
I don't want to be tainted. I'm rambling trying to get things off my chest.
Knowing at some point some one might see this.
I don't want to care.
I never really cared until some one told me there is a consequence behind it all.
The consequence behind these words is some one will think something wrong of me.
People hold me back, yet people push me forward.
It all seems obvious yet it all slowly kills me inside.
And I hate it. I hate it so much. Maybe i'm saying things i don't mean.
I hate when I do that as well.
I'm aware. Yet i'm so blind.